I recently started watching “Californication” because I love David Duchovny and a good netflix binge. I’ve learned two things as I’m approaching season 4.

1.Even if something feels right, doesn’t mean it is
2.I’m staying clear of any men from L.A. (slightly kidding)

In the beginning of the series, I was really hoping for the big Karen/ Hank reunion. I really wanted them to work everything out and get their acts together and embrace their true feelings and raise Becca as normally as possible. But alas, they are still in limbo even though she left her husband on her wedding day, only to jump in the back of Hank’s convertible.

Hank can’t conquer who he truly is, which he shouldn’t. He wants to save all women and that makes me love him, but mostly hate him at the same time. I have found myself now hoping that Karen and Hank will just remain civil and not end up together. It is evident from the way they seem (so far) that they should be together and spend the rest of their lives together, but they just keep tearing each other apart.  Just because something is so painfully obvious, doesn’t mean it should actually be anything at all. This is what makes things so difficult to understand sometimes because it’s so hard to deny something that makes sense and feels right. It’s especially hard because I know what I want and when it doesn’t work, it is devastating.

I’ve encountered many things this year that are so puzzling because at the end of the day whether it’s about matching clothes and putting a look together, relationships or work, sometimes the only thing I can manage to say and think is, “what the what the?” Limbo is not a great place to be in any aspect. The more I find myself repeating this thought to myself, the more I’m realizing it could be time to let some things go, but it is conflicting, just like Hank because even though I desperately loathe him, I do admire something about his character. He does not give up on what he wants.

Maybe letting go of something isn’t the answer at all. Maybe asking “what the, what the” is a good way to tell how much you care about something and seeing what really is worth working for.

Steal my look today: Jennifer Lopez legging: Kohl’s, Mumford and Sons tee: Concert, or online, Route 66 Flannel: K-mart